Isis + Anubis

Recently, like some months back, I've been using the name of Isis since I bought this magical tome from Borders, KL: http://www.hermeticfellowship.org/Iseum/The_Book.html

I'm largely attracted to Her, firstly, due to my boyfriend's usage of Her Name in some of his more important magical workings (so it could have been subconsciously imbued into my mind / in case u asked, my bf and I each pursue different spiritual paths and only linked romantically), and then it was Her image as the Motherly Lady in White.

A bit of digression here, so please indulge me. I love my Grandma and my Mother a lot, but we, being mere mortals, are subject to human misgivings and feelings of guilt and disappointment. To save you from the dreary storytelling of my love-hate relationships with my mortal maternal figures, I believe my attraction to the Lady Isis is due to a subconscious abstraction of the perfect motherly love.

Anyways, I've been burying my head in Isis Magic from time to time, as it is a substantial peace of literature. The book is largely appealling to the female demography of readers, but the author did try to make the male readers feel part of the "women's club". I think it becomes a bad thing anyways if a book has to "try" to make different segments of the demography to feel accepted "anyways" and "by the ways".

Apart from that, the book dedicated several introductory chapters to the history of Isiac worship. And then the rest of the book is rituals and spells, and a glossary of epithets to Isis.

Alrite, back to my Isiac experience. As I've said before, I've used Her Name in several occasions. During a particular night of attempt to sleep after a day in office, I found myself asking Her to soothe my body aching all over from the daily stress and my soul tired from the daily passion-numbing experience of working in an assembly-line of the animation studio. I envisioned the Mother Isis radiating beams of healing white light all over me, and then I slept like a baby, waking up feeling recharged. The first thing I did after waking up is saying a prayer of gratitude to Her.

In another occasion, as I was about to peak fucking my boyfriend, I impulsively thought of Her Name. Guess what? It was the most amazing orgasm I ever had! Of course, it would be most prolly due to reading a paragraph about Isis as the goddess of sexuality and the passions. Hey, according to the book, a Roman emperor actually tried to ban Isiac worship because of its "pornographic elements", but the religion expanded anyways throughout Europe in PreChristian era.

It might not appear magical to people who watch Charmed, Harry Potter and Supernatural, but magic is actually very much part of our daily lives, and it could be used to uplift us in every second if we choose to.

Isiac magic is prolly a ritualistic endeavor, the book says, but I cannot believe that the Lady Isis could only be honored in one way as She is the Goddess of Ten Thousand Names. Besides, I am not the type of person who memorize the multiplication table, and I am an artist, forgoddesssake!

However, I've been told the Name of Isis, if used, must be compensated. Tit for tat, eh? Remember to provide a sacrifice of white roses, lilies or lotus should you use Her Name. That's all She asked.

About Anubis. It seems to be like a phase. Anubis is my current attraction. I really wonder how my mind works, but as an artist, I tend to accept my impulsiveness more gladly. Or maybe it's my subconsciousness. I believe all our conscious actions and thoughts are issued and sponsored by our subconscious one. Yes, I read and love Jung and his works.

So, Anubis. I gotta admit, my attraction to the Jackal-Headed One is largely artistic and sexual. Somehow I found that a jetblackskinned jackalheaded god is so tantalizing. And that dark and indifferent aura He eminates as an Underworld deity. Who doesn't love a bad boy, eh?

Anyways, I like to rationalize the dual attraction. Anubis is said to be Isis's foster-son, but there are so many versions out there, I don't care to recount it all here, so you might want to google for them. But I am largely in love with the version in which Isis loved Anubis as Her own flesh and blood even though he was the offspring of Her Husband with a different goddess. This says a lot about the character of Isis as a great woman, not just a goddess. This doubly rises my affection and devotion to the Lady Isis for her compassion, unconditional love and selflessness.