Penguin Cafe

Recently, I discovered the music of the Penguin Cafe Orchestra. You can read all about them here . My favorite piece of theirs would be Perpetuum Mobile . A piece of melody that I am sure you have heard in many art house films or TV programs since it was first produced.

In the wiki article of the PCO, under the History section, there is quotation by the late founder of the group itself. The last few sentences of the quotation is very impressionable to me:-

It started out 'I am the proprietor of the Penguin Cafe, I will tell you things at random' and it went on about how the quality of randomness, spontaneity, surprise, unexpectedness and irrationality in our lives is a very precious thing. And if you suppress that to have a nice orderly life, you kill off what's most important. Whereas in the Penguin Cafe your unconscious can just be. It's acceptable there, and that's how everybody is. There is an acceptance there that has to do with living the present with no fear in ourselves.

It disheartens me when I was sharing this with a fellow who I IM with from time to time that he should said he had abandoned his random behavior and find much joy in being orderly, very much due to the nature of his work. I cannot say the same for all adults, but in my living experience as a member of the working force, some random distraction is always good, even at work. Of course, being serious at work is very much in my system, but taking a break from all this seriousness every 1 or 2 hours give my spirit a lift. So when I am off from work, I am determined to be random, to be funny and humorous. To see my husband smiling and laughing at my antics is a joy in the evenings.

After all is said and done, I like to advise that adulthood should not be the end of childhood and innocent merriment. Each of us has a private wound that we lick on from time to time, but I am giving you a bandaid with pink and yellow flowers print to patch on that silly ol' wound, and I will hold your hand and lead you where the milk and honey flow like rivers do.

Go watch a comedy and laugh louder than usual, or text message your friend at 3:00 AM to tell them is time to wee-wee. There is no point in the inhibition. Get a private joke instead.

Daimonon

I find peace in believing God as a personal experience. The few times I have been in Christian, Catholic and Buddhist collective rituals, I discover no such peace, but a disconcerting humming noise in my head. I have an instinctive ability to reject collective religious experience. And a soreness against evangelists, no matter which religion they are preaching. I simply can't be told what to believe ... I felt it inherently wrong.

2009: Happiness

Well, I wanna set out in this post to tell the Universe what I have learned insofar from my 25 years of living as a human being. It took me 25 years to learn to be happy. Please, laugh. I invite you to. Because it is a source of happiness to be able to entertain others in my own way. :)

I want to pay my gratitudes and appreciation to masters of creative visualization like Rhonda Byrne, D.W. Walsch and Shakti Gawain. Although Byrne became one of the most famous in the field of creative visualization, I would say Gawain's book titled Creative Visualization offered far more insightful discourses and exercises that was culminated from her many years of experience and reading the treatises of even older masters. I can't express my gratefulness enough with the words I typed here. I sincerely wish her and the masters I mentioned here to live long, wealthy and healthy lives. And I give my thanks to the Universe for coming to being and allowed me to experience this amazing phenomenon called Life.

Now I just need to pay more attention to feeling good through out 2010. And I don't mean psychedelia induced by drugs or satisfaction brought about by material possessions and sex. No, sirree. I am going to start exercising to counter the effects of staring at the computer for too long and get my heart pumping to reduce cholesterol and stress. I am also going to meditate more regularly to keep my mental health balanced and my spirit centered to control my feelings better. I need to tackle situations better, and through the meditations I believe I could do so. I need to be involved in charity related with no organized religion.

I need to be more grateful with everything I have now, and I know I will. Thank you for allowing me the means to share my thoughts and knowledge. Thank you for the good friends I have get to know and who share in my experiences to happiness. Thank you for all the hurts that was done to me as a child so that it makes my pursuit for happiness today a more meaningful and insightful endeavor. I have so much to be grateful already, and I think I should make a list of it:

1) I am extremely grateful for a loving husband, friend and partner in life. He is most kind and patient with me while I am struggling to be more balanced and centered with my emotions. I had been very angry with him, but there is nothing to forgive because I accept him for who he is now and I shall love him as he is; a compassionate, spiritual and loving being. I had failed to see that but I have saw now and that image of this most angelic being of all beings I shall hold dear to my heart.

2) I am most appreciative to be given the means to possess a house, a car and two dogs called Coffee and Lester. I no longer wish for more. This is all I ever wanted in life. Being 25 and able to own such things is a very fortunate life indeed. A lot of people worked their entire lives simply to get a car of their dreams. Now I only endeavor to expand my business in advertising. It might not provide meaning to my life, but it is a source of joy and contentment to be able to work and continuously learn from new people and new experiences. I wish all the people that I encounter through my business will be affected by my passion for happiness and joy in life.

3) I am grateful for the body I have already. All else that I endeavor to do is to help me to have better control of my life and emotions. I am already the perfect being that I was created since the beginning of time. This body-temple I maintain to honor the essence that is carried within. May my spirit shine out the better with my body that is well cared for. I will care for it and it shall be brilliant. I will always carry a smile, not only for people but in appreciation to the Universe at large. For it is the Universe that gave me the means to smile, so there is no reason why I should be rude to it. :)

There is always a reason to smile. :)

XOXO

Tommy

OITO 003: Gym Bunny

OITO 002: Plush Fox

OITO 001: Hoot

Discipline!

Discipline, Tommy, discipline! An archer, whose aim is narrow, will let fly an arrow straight and true. Away with distraction. Savor in that delayed gratification. You know you will gain beyond your expectations. Oh, so certain is that truth! So discipline, Tommy, discipline!

Limerence

A swallow longs for her southern nest
A brown field thirsty for the rain
My skin has a dire need
For your fingers' gentle caresses.